Preparing for the upcoming holiday, I realised that what I really really need is a decent rest, not a holiday. Recently I've been dreaming of myself doing absolutely *&#^ all without thinking of anything, even my motherly duty. (See Here's my little wish) Yeah, I can only dream about it. Just wondered what I have done to deserve to be constantly on a go for 5 months. It's mentally draining. No wonder I crave for loud, head-banging music to keep myself going.
But I won't cancel this holiday. I'm determined to have a good time. I need to do and see something different to keep my sanity. (If I have such a thing called sanity in the first place.) Actually today was the first day that I truly looked forward to the holiday. It will be very hectic 7 days, though.
To be honest, I don't know which makes me feel better - keeping myself busy with a never-ending "to-do" list in the hand, or spending a whole day selfishly. I know I shouldn't be greedy, but now I just want to be happy.
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